EXCLUSIVE! NEW MUSIC: @BSLADE - "Six Years Old" [NSFW]

B.Slade //Image Courtesy Civic Taylor & Suxxess Records. USED BY PERMISSION.

From the forthcoming  LP, "My September Issue", available 8.19.2013
Produced by JoBlaq
Written By Anthony C.Williams II

"After being told by someone that I acted like a six year old by someone I love and trusted, I 

wrote them a letter explaining why these traits probably still exist but I still never TRULY went 

into depth about the shit I really went through in the year of being a six year old. I told them 

that I was a metaphorical six year old trying to survive in a society that I was not given the 

proper tools to cope with. Being raised as a fundamental evangelical pentecostal, I was 

reared in a bubble and as a result in my adulthood suffered from severe arrested 

development and PTSD. As I begin this therapeutic journey to self realization and 

confrontation, I reveal once again more truth that many people may not be aware of. Before 

you judge me try HARD to love me. And if not, fuck off. No really, just kiss my black ass."

my feet couldn't reach the pedals

so my father got on his knees

and used his hands to press the pedals

at the bottom of the hammond B3

6 years old and I lied about the kool aid

I told my mama that my dad said it was ok to drink

when my father found out he beat me with a belt of leather

until my thighs split open and it caused my calves to bleed

so as a grown ass man

I act like a 6 year old

I act like a little ass boy

and I'm protective of all my toys

cuz they're the only things that never judge me

that's why I act like a 6 year old

full of imagination and wonder

but still afraid of the "Distant Thunder"

6 years old and I'm staring at a movie screen

in a dark sanctuary shaking watching "image of the beast"

repeated nightmares can't sleep even at 33

thanks alot dad now I'm stuck with fucking PTSD

Now my relationships suffer & i can't live a normal life

but your philosphies daddy said it's alright to scare 'em 2 Christ

So when I'm selfish or I'm needy 

or I act like a scaredy cat

just try to function normally

without a grandparent mom or dad

I always felt like my brothers hated me 

even though I try to do my best

since I'm a bitch ass faggot

I'm the one they wish they never had

so I'm a six year old

I act like a little ass boy

and I'm very protective of my toys

cuz they're the only things that never judge me

I'm a 6 year old

full of imagination and wonder

but still afraid of the "Distant Thunder

I'm a six year old

I'm a little boy 

they never judge me

I'm a six year old

I'm a little ass boy

I'm very protective of my toys

cuz they're the only things that never judge meI'm a 6 year old

full of imagination and wonder

but still afraid of the "Distant Thunder"

Update: "My September Issue" Pulled

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